Changa is a DMT-infused smoking blend. Typically, extracts from DMT-containing plants are combined with a blend of different herbs and ayahuasca vine and/or leaf to create a mix that is 20–50% DMT, akin to a smokeable Ayahuasca
What started as a normal passive day at home soon became an indescribable journey within and without. One year on and I can hardly summon the words to describe what I bore witness to or even remotely fathom the majesty of the experience which literally changed everything for me! Suddenly all is, was and will be possible…
My philosophical and psychological background is built on rational, atheistic and stoic reasoning. Being raised in and then having a subsequent career in the military removes all trace of any residual or society imprinted religious notions that may have once existed in an imaginative child. Experiencing multiple marriage breakdowns and traumatic alcoholic physical abuse before the age of Ten had left me worn thin and bereft of feelings and emotions of which to entertain established religions.
Instead of using a spiritual crutch like so many others, I built an impenetrable fortress around my heart. A Chinese wall that wouldn’t allow my guard to fall, my time as an Infantryman solidified and codified these self protectionist modalities. They protected me and allowed me to push myself through physical and mental obstacles I encountered (but this is a tale for another time)
With my emotional intelligence and empathy severely lacking somewhat I happened across the Changa which was a kind gift by a good friend. My knowledge of DMT was limited to Netflix and Joe Rogan’ s monologues on the effects of 5Meo-Dmt. I was intrigued and had some previous experience micro-dosing LSD as a therapy for random bouts of PTSD which was very successful in hitting the reset button of life. But this was something else…the history and evidential experiments conducted in the seminal movie “the spirit molecule” scared and enthralled me. With this in mind I quieted my
always chaotic mind and loaded up a hash pipe with a small heap of Changa
With a cynical mind I inhaled the foul plastic odour and held my breath counting 30 seconds I exhaled. Feeling giddy I looked out of my window, an overcast Irish sky greeted my vision.
Then…the Ivy which clings to my high garden wall started to dance as if by a hidden swaying tune. Filaments of rainbow edged light burned from the tips of the Ivy tendrils as a rising feeling deep within my chest cavity greeted the visual display. Remarkably similar to Acid I thought aloud..
I recalled a conversation with my friend ” close your eyes and enjoy your journey” he had advised
As I lay back in my bed and closed my eyes everything changed… “Now you will see through my eyes” a disembodied voice communicated to me from within..none of these descriptions can even come remotely close to this awe-inspiring adventure, I can only hope in vain that the reader will draw any resemblance to the actual occurrence.
Deep beyond my physical body I felt a loving kindness radiate throughout my being. I felt no body but only light as if I were made of stars. The warmth continued to consume me from the inside clearing pathways for more light to enter
Closed eye visuals were beautiful and intense swirling fractals of magenta kaleidoscope’s and golden geometric’s interlaced with cosmic displays of stars being born. These visions however beautiful were secondary to the overwhelming feelings that came from within and somehow at the same time external. I felt a oneness that I had never felt before, a connectedness with every single thing. Not just sentient beings but multi-dimensional layers of existence which pervades everything at once across all realms. All this within the space of 15 sweet mind-blowing minutes…then slowly and without a crash back to planet Earth, this current reality over took my senses and I was back lying on my bed astounded..
Moving into my front room I looked out of our window at my Cherry tree which was just losing the last of its blossoms. I marvelled at their beauty and at the same time was utterly shocked at the pure brilliance of the revelation I had just beheld. “Well?”my wife asked “how was it?” I couldn’t respond the magnitude of the moment had taken my breath away. . “All the spiritual clichés are true” I finally replied breathing deeply and gasping for meaning “All is love and we are love, there is nothing separate from the great form” I remained at the window for sometime with a large smile on my face
The warmth in my heart remained there for days after and utterly changed my view of our place in this magical dimension. I truly believe that I had been the receiver of a special message…A message that this benevolence is behind everything, behind the universe, behind life and nature itself and that everything is and will be ok. I had a tremendous vibe of comfort and love and that this ultimate reality of the entirety of existence is the answer that I had searched for my entire life. Death is just the beginning…I am no longer afraid because I have seen what lay beyond this life and it is simply beyond human comprehension